Feb 1st 2019

So I sit here on my comfy couch – better than sitting on the floor! :). Listening to some rock music my phone is playing.

The fire alarm is going off in my building. I assume it was some drug deal gone bad. In the building I lived in before this one, the fire alarm would be pulled by vigilantes at least once a week. The fire department at that complex even wrote a letter to the whole apartment building saying if they find out who was behind the alarms being pulled – they would press charges.

I’m drinking Black Tea right now. Apparently it has 10 health benefits. Let me see if I can dredge up the link and insert it here: https://bit.ly/2N7oZzl

My cord to my phone connecting it to the charger just came lose and fell off my couch. :(. I don’t want to get up and fix it……….Ok fixed!

The skin over the knuckles of my fingers of my right hand is swollen and cracked. I assume it’s from frostbite because my left hand doesn’t have the same problem, and I’m right handed. I assume it’s from putting up my biz cards in bus shelters during the ‘Severe Cold Weather’ that we’ve had here in Toronto the past 5 days. It has been regularly -16C with the windchill in the daytime on a daily basis.

Called my alcoholic friend this morning. I’ll name him Bob to protect his identity. He as doing OK – but he mentioned that some sort of ‘tragedy’ happened that he wouldn’t go into detail about. Whatever – it’s probably something on the news that’s gotten him flustered

Sorry this is a stock photo. I couldn’t find any better one to visually explain Bob.

Jan 30 ‘19

So I just had two bowls of the pasta I made yesterday. It was good. I myself would have never bought eggplant from the store because it is so hard with which to cook.

Intended on going to the gym for two hours today, but after an hour and 20 mins on the elliptical I began to feel hungry so I stopped the work out.

It’s been BITTERLY cold this evening. PAINFULLY cold on the walk from the bus stop to my apartment building. LEMME see the windchill…Yeah the weather report says it ‘feels like’ -30.

Jan 29 ‘19

So I’m sitting here on my couch – AGAIN! The only other two places to sit in my apartment are on my bed or on the rug on the floor. JUST FINISHED MAKING DINNER AND I’M EXHAUSTED! Got up at 7am-8am this morning and been going non-stop. I guess that’s the price you have to pay to earn a living.

I made eggplant, Brussels sprouts, and mushroom pasta with salt, pepper, oregano and some type of suedo Parmesan. I’m happy about the vitamins and minerals in the pasta. I boil my Brussels sprouts because that’s what I was taught. I sautéed the eggplant and the mushrooms.

My regular Scotch tape is working today when I put up my biz card. I got a call today about my Massage service. At least I’m getting calls!

Jan 28 ‘19

It was FREEZING in Toronto today. I took my Smartphone out to videotape something outside for less than 3 MINUTES and the fingers holding my phone froze.

The roads are all crusty with packed snow.

I was unhappy because I thought all the biz cards of mine I taped up in bus shelters stopped adhering to the glass walls of the shelters and then fell to the ground to be discarded 😦

I’m not crazy about putting up my business cards – it’s only one per bus shelter.

I was so worried about my normal Scotch tape not working in this weather that I went to Cdn Tire and bought some heavy-duty looking clear tape. It was $8. The Scotch tape is like $2. When I got outside I tested the new tape, but it didn’t seem to be sticky (I guess something to do with how cold it was?!). I tested it inside in warm temperature and it WAS sticky.

I saw one of my old biz cards in the bus shelter near my gym tonight – and I was surprised it was till sticking to the wall (because it was with regular Scotch tape). I then tested it and then it stopped sticking and then I put it in my bag.

I’m worried about this weather. I need a cold weather tape. I googled for that type of tape and found one called ‘Frost King’ clear plastic Weatherall tape. (https://amzn.to/2FWdmut)

There’s this dipshit who lives down the hall from me. He’s gotten a new dog. It barks NON-STOP. I’ve already called the authorities on him and they said it will take several days to resolve or respond the issue. The dog probably sits in the entranceway of his apartment, and barks TOWARDS THE DOOR. I’m like 9 APARTMENTS away from him. I am not close to his door, and I can hear the dog CLEARLY. It is LOUD. Who the fuck gets a dog that is an incessant barker? It doesnt’ help that this is probably a normal size dog (not a toy dog). SOO IRRITATING.

So I searched where I can find this tape in my city, and apparent I could get it at Home Depot. Lowes, or Walmart.

I may just return the supposed ‘better’ tape I bought today for a refund. If it’s not going to work in cold weather – it won’t be useful until April. I can’t wait 2 whole months for tape.

Jan 26 ‘19

So I just made myself my first meal in several years. I call it so because it’s like: rice, potatoes, carrots and onion. The potatoes were sautéed with rosemary and chopped garlic – same for the carrots and onion (well, kind of steamed afterwards). The rice is jasmine rice (i was supposed to buy basmati – but OH WELL) infused with herby cream cheese. I also added (I think) ranch dressing to it. It’s pretty good.

I guess I haven’t had an *actual* meal in so long because of my work schedule – and before that my addiction to whiskey, and before that respiridone. In case you didn’t know, I’ve never been psychotic. Respiridone is an anti psychotic. It’s a long, complicated story.

Jan 25 ‘19

Sitting here eating my crappy dinner I just made. The carrots are too crunchy – but I haven’t cooked anything like this for 3 years. Such is a life of poverty. I used to be content at just cracking open a can of peas, adding creamy salad dressing to it – and eating it. Now, possibly ironically, the food from the Food Bank has gotten me cooking. They gave me carrots and onions and potatoes, so I looked up how to sauté potatoes and got an adequate video by Gordon Ramsay.

I also wanted to add the carrots and the onions to the potatoes. Initially I wanted to sauté all of them together, but my pan wasn’t big enough (there were a lot of potatoes). He called for olive oil, but all I had was vegetable oil. I skipped the tablespoon or so of butter with the potatoes, but I bought the rosemary. I forgot to chop the rosemary, but overall the potatoes are tasty. I simply cut up the onion, cut up the carrots somewhat (after cleaning them), and then sautéed them together in the same pan the potatoes were in. I added salt and pepper to both the potatoes and the other veggies. It seems like the dish is missing something. Originally I had thought of putting the stuff on toast with herby cream cheese – but I forgot about that and the carrots are too big and crunchy anyways to enjoy with toast. The hardness of the carrots would DESTROY the toast!

I’ve had too many carrots today anyways. I buy baby carrots from the grocery store and then partition them into sandwich bags. There is usually too many carrots per bag. What happened today was I ate a whole bag of carrots and then of course had stomach pain. Whatever. Maybe tomorrow I’ll have more self control. I thought of putting less carrots in a bag and replacing the half of carrots with celery – since I eat celery and carrots daily. Carrots are good for eye health and celery – well, celery is a vegetable so it’s obviously good for you. More specifically it has fibre. Dieticians are CRAZY about fibre.

Jan 24th ‘19

So I’ve just returned from the Food Bank and I’m eating ‘Dark Chocolate Ghost Pepper Almonds’ that they gave me. The bag they came in looks good – really good design and quality of bag. The almonds themselves looked good. The first 3 tasted yummy, but then the spiciest of the ‘ghost pepper’ hit me. I can’t eat them as fast anymore 😦

I go to the Food Bank because I don’t have my own income. I’m somewhat addicted to alcohol. I haven’t been drinking lately, but I don’t know when I might start again and head on down to the bar. I’m crossing my fingers I won’t.

Anyways, I am newly self employed and because of that I have to ‘market’ myself. So I’ve been doing that everyday. Ideally I should have some fancy post-card sized thingamijig marketing tool and put that in 5000 mailboxes of a neighbourhood I’m targeting. But I can’t afford that. So instead I buy 500 business cards and then put them up in bus shelters and at those ‘public message centre’ thingies around town. It suits me.

I’m not in the mood to go door-to-door to businesses and make some sort of pitch. That takes a lot of energy. Plus you have to deal with the rejection. Even asking them to have their permission to place my business card somewhere prominent in their store would be too much. I wouldn’t like to deal with asshol-ism right now.

Toronto is full of assholes. I got one calling about my Energy Therapy card. I believe he tried to sabotage me by trying to humiliate me by making me look gullible by believing his story that he wanted to have an incestuous relationship. Seriously – he was rude! The second Idiot who called me patronized me because when I accidentally coughed into the phone (I said ‘sorry’ before I coughed), he was like “Do you have tuberculosis or something?”. PRETTY INSULTING! So by then I knew he wasn’t serious about my service and I hung up on him and blocked him. Toronto’s in a war right now and I’m not going to be the weakling who gets trampled to death.

Anyways, another reason I go to the Food Bank is so eventually I’ll have enough money saved up to buy more marketing materials for my small businesses.

They gave me a bag of onions, carrots and potatoes. I believe that potatoes shouldn’t be put in the fridge – but I’ll check. Ok – so it looks like the best bet for my potatoes will be to put them in my cupboard out of a plastic bag. The website I went to says if you keep them in the fridge they will become gritty and sweet. Next thing is: how do you store onions? Ok – it looks like the best place to store them would be the same place as the potatoes! Be back in a sec! Next: how do you cook carrots without peeling them (I don’t have a peeler and don’t want to buy one)? Ok, it says that you don’t have to peel carrots – just scrub them. https://www.thekitchn.com/5-times-you-dont-have-to-peel-carrots-tips-from-the-kitchn-220405

Eww these ghos pepper almonds are too spicy! Bleh!

OK – how do I store eggplant? Sh*t son! It looks like you shouldn’t keep eggplant in the fridge – in the same place as the potatoes and onions!