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I had made the Wrong Decision of handing out Biz Cards to Torontonians.

Toronto is a f*cked up City full of losers who are addicted and reliant on internet advertising.

These sh*theads probably want me to make a Website so they can view it before they call me.

F*cking pansies.

My Balance was only $800 because I had spent about $600 the past two weeks on booze – just to be able to handle the rejection of The Pathetic and/or Anti-White and/or Anti-Male and/or Non-English-Speaking Torontonians. I can’t believe I’m staying in this City: but I’m TRUE to following my Inner Intent and keeping my Haric Line healthy.

I’m kind of fat in this video because I had gained weight from a prescription medication I had taken for at least a year. I am wary of prescription medications now because twice in my life I have suffered serious side effects from taking them systemically. They have ranged from causing me Near Sightedness to Obesity to making my Mind into a dull M-U-S-H.

One of them bascially wiped out two years of my life that I will never get back.

Concerning my Businesses – I don’t want a business loan right now. My rule is that if i have a loan – I must have a plan to pay it back. I don’t have a plan, so I wouldn’t like a loan. I’m simply focused on my Website right now.

Any work being Self Employed – whether it be successful or not – is better than not doing any work and becoming an alcoholic!!! Thankfully going to the gym is no longer a trigger for going to the bar.

Thank you to DeviantArt for allowing me to use their photo for the thumbnail.



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So I just had two bowls of the pasta I made yesterday. They were enjoyable. It included eggplant that I got from the Food Bank.(I go to the Food Bank once a week because otherwise I won’t be motivated enough to cook dinner for myself. Getting random ingredients given to me compels me to think about what I can make with them – and then I end up cooking!!!). I myself would have never bought eggplant from the store because it is so hard with which to cook.

Intended on going to the gym for two hours today, but after an hour and 20 mins on the elliptical I began to feel hungry so I stopped the work out. Within Human Energy Field (HEF or Aura) theory, the 1st Level (Etheric Template) of the Aura is linked to your feelings of hunger, cold/hot, pain, pleasure, discomfort etc. So by noticing that feeling of hunger (with my Outer Mind), and by respecting it (by stopping the work-out), I would have improved the 1st Level of my HEF.

It’s been BITTERLY cold this evening. PAINFULLY cold on the walk from the bus stop to my apartment building. LEMME see the windchill…Yeah the weather report says it ‘feels like’ -30…




Yeah…So I sit here listening to Exposure from Current Value. CV is amazing, you should go check him out!!!

Eating peanut butter on toast. I learned today that people of my weight (130lbs) should eat about 40-50 grams of protein a day.

Went to the gym today. I’m not going to say ‘as usual’ because I don’t really want to go to the gym. It is always a struggle to go – but now a days it’s a small struggle compared to before when it was a big struggle!

I don’t understand how small young men can be. They are so scrawny. I guess they go to the gym because it’s something social to do – for them. I go because I’m serious about losing weight.

I don’t want any issues from socializing. As an Energy Healer, I am almost always aware of how faulty peoples’ Energy Anatomy is – so I tend to purposely avoid people in social situations. Not in any obvious way, however for the most part I just want to be by myself and I don’t get lonely.

There was this beefcake on the elliptical beside me today who was all business about his workout. He was DRENCHED in sweat – like the whole back of his T-shirt was soaked. I was worried he might have a heart attack – but I respected him and his choice and just focused on my workout.

The gym places this awful show on the TV almost every time I go there. It’s of these couples who either renovate their house or are looking for a new one. This is kind of like a slap in the face for me. I envisioned that I would be making enough money by 26 years old to buy my Dad a new driveway. Then I realized I had to do a whole bunch of marketing I had no clue how to do. Then I just gave up. Now – years later I’m doing the marketing.



So today I went to the gym. The gym is a big deal to me because of Weight Loss. I used to be slim, and now I’m fat. I want to be slim again.

Some people at the gym don’t work as hard as I do. I get on the elliptical and push it for an hour.

(March 10th ’19 Update: I now go to the gym for 2 hours a day. One hour a day wasn’t working. I was getting impatient to lose the belly. I’m beginning to see the defines of muscles beneath the belly fat!)



So I’m having coffee in the evening so I can write my Blog. As you may know I’m supposed to write my blog daily – but I haven’t been because I’ve been too tired from my unpaid marketing work for myself. At the moment I am taping my business card to the wall of bus shelters around the city.

Up until a few day ago I was handing out my biz cards to the right looking people (my target market), but when I tried to do it on the 24th and only one person accepted my card, it made me too vexed at people to do it until now.

I’m still feeling a bit unhappy about that day, however once my Energy Healing biz cards will run out (I have more ordered on the way), I’ll hand out my Massage biz cards. I’ve been thinking about writing ‘feet only’ massage on them. I think that’s fitting because it has been years since I practiced massage and the feet for me are a great starting point.



So went to the gym this evening: only went for half an hour.  

Went for an hour yesterday because of the pint of beer I had to have before leaving for the gym because there was some psycho weirdo guy in the bus shelter.  I tried to be able to deal with him around, but when the bus came, I was too irritated to take it.

Like – I may see the gym as a sort of punishment.  I would love to just stay in my apartment and drink beer all evening and watch stuff on the internet, but that would cause me to get even fatter, plus I’d feel guilty for drinking at home (because I have a ‘No Drinking Rule’ at home).

I remember the time I lived in that awesome house on Baycrest Avenue, I had had a couple beers at the local bar (which was on Avenue Rd…such a hoity toity place). Upon getting home I ended up spilling the beans and reaming out my female housemate for being a slut.  LOL.  

I had to move from that house because apparently the landlord said some of his extended family needed a place to live and they needed my bedroom. The neighbour next door said that wasn’t true. I didn’t question her because it would have incensed me. She probably heard the slut complain about me on her cell when she was out the side door smoking (within earshot of the neighbour’s backyard. It’s not like that wasn’t the only time we had an argument.  I think another days before that we had an argument and the landlord was hiding somewhere and then he asked me why we weren’t getting along and I said it was because we weren’t having sex.  Clarissa was horny all the time and coming onto me whenever she was around me, but I wasn’t into women at the time so i found it annoying.  



So today I went to the gym today.  I am often so pleased with myself for having gone for my half hour of cardio.  I am really looking forward to losing my belly and chest fat and looking sexier.

My diet is atrocious right now.  Can’t really do much about that bc it’s more important to me right now to not be working in a job I don’t care about, grumbling about not making enough money.  

So I’ve become self employed with no grants or start up money.  

When I got home from the gym, before getting into my apartment I stopped by the garbage chute to throw out my can of Brisk, and jumped back when I saw there was a person crouched on the floor in the small room infont of the chute.  It was this homeless lady that I’ve seen hanging around my neighbourhood for a while.  

I didn’t want to upset her, so I didn’t act aggressive or angry or anything like that.  She wanted to make small talk about recycling, so I went along with it.  I felt bad for her that she was sleeping there, and I wanted to invite her to my apartment to sleep, but I was reminded of my weed addicted ex fiancé…

(Update: I’ve found out that girl may be ‘dating’ the ‘Crackhead’ who lives in the apartment at the end of the hall. I call him a crackhead because he is skinny and has sunken cheeks like a crackhead would. Also he tends to hang around the hallway too much, talking on his phone. He could be like a normal person and restrict his phone conversations to WITHIN his apartment. Plus he bought a new dog that BARKED INCESSANTLY for the first week. Plus he couldn’t afford a $3.25 bus fare. Plus he is friends with the Drunkard in my building).

About the Ex-Fiancee: I felt sorry for him so I let him live with me, but he was abusive and wouldn’t let me turn off the lights at night to sleep.  Pretty weird (I guess it was from the ‘paranoia’ from his addiction), and I put up with it.  I don’t know why he was trying to sleep deprive me.  I guess he was trying to make me go crazy or something so he could steal my money.  I feel bad talking about him so I’ll stop.